Show Me The Things That I've Never Wanted Done

So I'm laying on my bed waiting for Maria to get out of the shower. Things with her have been really awesome. I hope things stay this good for a while.

I'm moving next month into the place Kevin is staying at. There's some confusion on when his roommate will move out though. Hopefully things get cleared up soon. I can not wait to get out of this place.

I hate work so much. I've started looking for a new job. I applied to Bank of America and I'm hoping I hear from them soon. I feel like I meet their qualifications pretty well.

I love my friends out here. We all hang out at night and just sit around and talk. It's nice because it'll be warm out and really calm.

I need to get my charger back from Wennie. She's being hella ridiculous though. Pretty gay.

I've been wanting to try out for a band out here and record over this track they put up, but have been having second thoughts. I might not have enough time for a band. I might still record though just to do it.

I'm pretty broke. It's kind of scary. I'm so ready for a new job.

It's only me in the apartment now. It's kind of nice because it'll be quiet, but it's pretty boring. I really need to clean soon.

I lost my iPod and I'm so sad about it. Hopefully it'll turn up somewhere.

I'm gonna try and post more often.

Yes that's a Coheed and Cambria lyric. I started listening to them lately. Haha

One More Year

So long since I've typed in this.
I kind of don't want to anymore, but maybe this is what I need.

Things are completely different from my last post. Got my heart fucked with. Doing shitty in school. I hate my job. No more band.

I realize how lucky I am to have the friends I have. The ones in Sac and in Tracy. They've helped me get through all of this bull shit.

I'm trying to write more music for TSoW. I'm probably going to abandon the name The Summer of Wars. I already have a new name in mind, but I don't know if I want to go through all of the trouble.

This weekend is going to be awesome. I seriously cannot wait until I clock out of work on Saturday.

Things will be better. Things can be worse. I gotta keep that in my head.

They Say I Made The Moon

Been a while.

Been shitty lately.
Wennie and I are dating which is great, but she's mad at me.
I lied for a friend. Probably shouldn't have. I really hope things work out.

M83 is so good.

School's already stressing me out kind of.
Work isn't too bad. Finally slowing down.
Miss my family and friends in Tracy.
The band I joined is turning out really great.
I've been writing a lot.
Our first show is coming up. I hope I'm ready in time.
Stupid cough.

I'm quitting smoking for the millionth time.

It's scary how close you can be with someone for a while and then one day hardly talk to them. You're practically strangers. Even though you each spoke of important things in your life and felt you could completely trust each other. I guess it's life. Life is shitty. Have a good one.

I Forget Everything That's Ever Made Me

So I'm actually really sleepy and I think I should be sleeping, but I've been wanting to post a blog for a while.

I visited Tracy for a couple of days. It was nice to see my best friends. I missed them.

I've been working a lot. I'm glad that the holidays are over. It's a lot less stressful now.

Kevin is coming back next semester and I'm really happy about that. It sucks that he won't be living with us though. Oh well at least now I'll have a friend around here.

Still have no idea what's happening with that band I'm supposed to tryout for. Oh well.

I've decided that this new year that I would stop trying so hard to reach out to people. I'm tired of getting nothing back. If they really cared then they won't mind being the ones who try for once.

I'm liking things with Wennie. They're going really slow but that's good.

Kevin and I are going to Jackson tomorrow with her and her friends. It should be really fun.

Against The Walls, Against Your Rules, Against Your Skin

So a lot's been going on with me lately.

I broke up with Larissa.
I liked her and she was really nice and everything, but right now it wasn't what I wanted.
It was the first time I broke up with someone in a really long time.
It seems she's moved on pretty quick though so that's good.

Finals are this week and I'm trying to not stress about them at all.
I'm so ready for the semester to end.
I think I might start looking for a place for myself, since my two roommates might move back home.
I feel like it would be good for me to live by myself.

Even though I feel like I need to concentrate on myself for a while, I am definitely not going to fight any interests I find. And I think I might have found an interest.
I don't know what's going to happen with that, but right now I like it a lot.

I am trying out for a band soon. They seem pretty cool and have even suggested using a TSoW song and remaking it with a full band. I'm pretty excited. Hopefully it works out.

I've been missing my friends a lot. They're what's missing over here. Also, my family.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about you. I wish we still talked, and I understand that that probably won't happen for a really long time. I just miss the way we used to talk and laugh about things. You really were my best friend for over a year. I don't think you know how truly sorry I am for ever hurting you.

I found out this guy I went to High School with passed away today. It's really sad. He was such a nice guy, and just had a baby. Good people don't deserve stuff like that. This world is so fucked up. His poor family.

Tomorrow night, Wennie's coming over. I'm pretty excited. I made her a mix the other day and she said she liked it, but I don't know if she really did or not. She's kind of hard to read.

Time for sleep. Kevin's sleeping on my floor since Padraic plays Call of Duty until 9 in the morning.

I Feel Alive Tonight, The Possibility That I'm Your Guy

I haven't posted anything in a while.
I always do that.
I've been really busy lately with school and work.
Mostly work.

Tonight I'm in a really good mood.

• I don't work tomorrow
• I woke up early today
• Had some good sales at work
• Saw Larissa when I didn't think I would
• Went grocery shopping with Padraic
• I get to see my family this week
• I get to see my best friends back home
• I get to see Moose
• I get to eat home cooked food
• Christmas is coming up
• I feel like I actually have some friends out here
• Things with Larissa are going really good
• I'm actually making good progress towards my goal to quit smoking
• Thanksgiving is coming up soon
• I'm actually inspired to record (just can't right now because it's too late)
• Our apartment is getting cleaned tomorrow

I just feel good right now.
I'm hoping this doesn't change for a while.

Last night I went to a local Battle of the Bands with Larissa. The bands were alright. This one Pop Punk band was really good though. Larissa's friend's band was good too. They ended up winning. I felt bad because during the middle of the show I got really sick. I am never eating at Hotdog on a stick again. Larissa took care of me though. She's seriously amazing. It's crazy how happy she makes me.



Our song<3

I really want to find a band out here to sing for. I thought I found one, but the guitarist hasn't replied to my text about when I can audition. Maybe they found someone already? Oh well. It happens I guess.

I wish our heater worked in our place. It's way too cold in the morning.

Sleep here I come

Oh No, I Won't Let Them Take You, Won't Let Them Take You

I haven't posted on here in a bit.
I've sort of been busy.
It's getting sort of tiring.

I have the next two days off so I'm pretty happy about that.
I am stressing about school. I really hope I do good this semester.
I am actually feeling better about my money situation. I get paid this Friday and I'll have a good amount left over after I pay rent and everything.

Larissa and I have been getting closer.
I really like where things are going.
We're going to spend Halloween together and rent a movie since I have to work.
Honestly just watching a movie together that night sounds great.

Having Moose around was really nice. I missed him so much.
It was definitely a hassle to take care of him though.
It's probably good he isn't staying with me.
My parents know how to take care of him so he's happy.

I might audition for a band next week. I'm kind of excited.
Sort of nervous too. I hope it works out.

I hate having to wait for new heroes every week.

I saw Paranormal Activity. Definitely pretty creepy. I think I saw the alternate ending?
Or the original ending? Idk. She killed the guy, and got shot. Which ever one that was.

I really started liking Say Anything today. I never gave them a really good listen before.









So good.