I Just Can't Get Enough Of The Time

So last night was probably the most sleep I've had in a long time. I went to sleep sometime around 1 and slept until 10:30. Before my alarm. I felt really refreshed. I took a shower and got ready, and met up with my roommate's friend because I left my debit card in his car and he was returning it to me. I'm a dumbass for losing it. After that I grabbed my things and headed to class. I paid attention the whole class which hasn't happened in a while. After class I went back to my room, and then went to eat. After eating, I left for my Astronomy class. Astronomy has been very boring lately. But of course it gets interesting when I'm not there. I guess we study about Black Holes on Wednesday, but I'll be on my way to Tracy. Lame. After class I came back to my room and sat around. We went to eat dinner and then came back to my room. I sat around for a while. Watched TV, grabbed some more food from the DC store, then worked on my Speech Outline.

Heroes was intense. Like every Monday, I can't wait until next week.

I saw the trailer for the movie 2012 that is coming out next year. The trailer freaked me out because it was so similar to the dream I had a few nights ago. Oh well.

I just want tomorrow to be over. I like the idea of relaxing for a week.

I finished my Speech Outline. I just need to do the Bibliography. The speech should run more smoothly than the last one. I'll even have poster boards. That mother fucker better give me an A.

I'm excited to see some friends this week. It seems like forever since I've been in Tracy. It should be great.

I'll be transfering onto another bus in Modesto on Wednesday. The only problem is I'll have to wait about an hour for the bus. I'm pretty mad about that. It'll be dark by then too. I'm a little worried I'll look vunerable with my backpack, bag, and guitar. I should carry a knife.

I learned a new song today. I think I'm going to record it along with the songs I've been writing. The tabs for the song were stupid. But I used them to come up with chords that fit perfectly to the music. I can't wait.

I've been letting some stuff off my chest lately. It feels good.

I have no morning class tomorrow. I'm extremely happy about that. I bet Thanksgiving is my English teacher's favorite holiday. She probably has a whole turkey for herself.

We have to read The Secret Life of Bees for my English class. It's actually a pretty good book. It's annoying that I picture Dakota Fanning as the main character though, now that they made the book into a movie. Stupid.

I just downloaded a trial version of War of Warcraft. I thought I'd never see the day.

I wonder if people know I lurk their pages. Honestly I think I've done it to everyone's pages. The new profiles are stupid though.

Lately I have been able to keep people off my mind. It's nice. I don't care if it's wrong to say it: It Never Happened. None of it.

I might go to an opera on Saturday. I wonder if I have to dress nice. I'd rather not.

Dance Gavin Dance's new video is stupid. If it's not Swan screaming, why have him lip-sync it? It looks dumb.

This blog's longer than I thought it would be.

Falling In Love Is Easy, It's Easy To Do

This weekend seemed fast but now that I look back on it, it was kind of long. Friday we ended up just hanging out around here in the dorms. It was really cool and relaxing. Saturday we hung out and were planning on going to a party at night. We had to wait an hour before my roommate's friend came and gave us a ride, so we decided to walk to Taco Bell. It seemed like such a long walk. Maybe because I never do anything? Anyway Taco Bell was closed of course. So we walked to another friend of my roommate's apartment. It was nearby. We hung out with him and his friends. It was really fun. Around midnight we realized my roommate's friend wasn't coming to take us to that party. There turned out to be another party down the street, so we headed there. The party was pretty fun. Tons of nice people. The party died really fast though. When we were about to leave, my roommate's friends decided to steal the two kegs from that house. Two of them grabbed the first one, and my friend and I grabbed the second one. We got out of there pretty fast. My roommate will tell you though that it was mostly him who stole the kegs. Oh well, I'll let him believe it. Haha. We took the kegs to that guys apartment, grabbed some Taco Bell, and then we walked back to the dorms. It was a cold walk, but it was fun.

Today we didn't do much. Just sat around watching TV. I did some homework. That's about it.

Say Anything is a really good band. I'm glad I downloaded their album. I needed something new.

Liferuiner's 12.01.08 thing is really annoying. I bet it's not anything cool.

I haven't danced in so long. It might sound lame but I miss it haha. Whatever fuck you.

I've decided that everyone in the world has a stupid Facebook account. So I made one because I like to conform. And because I was scolded for not having one. Too bad it's confusing as hell.

I picked the topic of my persuasive speech! It's going to be: Why Macs are better than PCs. I have to make two posters tomorrow. I need to do good on this speech. I wish talking came easier to me.

The dream I had was insane. There was a big event that happened that caused the waves from the ocean to hit the land. It would happen, and then the whole thing would just start over. Except I knew that it was going to happen again. So I would run around trying to save people, but every time I would fail. It sucked.

I plan on doing something important this next week or so.

Magic Doesn't Feel Like Your Scene

Last night was another night of not being able to sleep. I really hate it. I somehow woke up this morning in time to get ready for class. I sat in class and watched as a few groups did presentations. One group asked the class to write down something that's been bothering them (whether it be a problem you've had for a long time or a problem you've encountered recently). We were going to turn them in to them and they were going to hand out the papers back randomly. The problem I wrote was nothing special: Stressed From School and Money. I was really surprised though when the paper I got read: Fear of Being Worthless. It was strange to think about how someone in that class was feeling that way, and I would never know who it was. It actually made me kind of sad. I haven't thrown that piece of paper away, and I'm not sure if I will. Maybe I'm just too sensitive.

After class I sat around in my room. I tried to watch The Rules of Attraction online. I heard about that movie and it seemed pretty good. The only problem is that watch-movies.net mistakenly posted the film The Laws of Attraction. It took me a good 10 minutes to realize this. Finally I just gave up and decided I'd rent it when I visit Tracy next week.

My roommate and I planned on going to a party he had heard about. He decided it was a good idea to start drinking before. Things were cool, until our friend dared him to finish the rest of the handle of vodka. It wasn't a lot, but it was definitely enough to get him hammered. He almost puked twice. And there were constant arguments between him and our friend. Honestly, I think my roommate just feels he has to prove to everyone that he can party hard. It sucks because I really don't care if he parties hard or not. Either way he's a cool guy. He finally passed out in his bed after the guy who was supposed to give us a ride bailed because he too thought it was a good idea to start drinking early.

I sat here for a while listening to the newest song I recorded. Out of nowhere, lyrics started pouring out of me. It was intense. I didn't want to stop writing because I was afraid they would go away. Finally, the lyrics are done. They aren't the mad or sad lyrics I usually write. It's probably the first song I've written that wasn't upset and that I liked completely.

Almost every night I can hear loud and obnoxious people outside of the dorms. It's really annoying. If they want to yell and act stupid, they should do it inside their room. Or go to a playground.

This weekend sounds fun. My roommate told me about a party a girl is having on Saturday.

I can't wait to record my music next week. I'm really just excited to be able to sing as loud as I want, without worrying if someone outside my room can hear me.

Chicken tenders from the DC store are really good.

So Wait Up, I'm Not Sleeping Alone Again Tonight

Last night was the longest night of my life. I laid in bed and no matter what I did, I could not fall asleep. I sat with my laptop and finished the instrumental of the new song I made. I realized it was 5:30 a.m. I don't remember when, but eventually I fell asleep.

I woke up to my alarm for my 12:00 class. I turned my alarm off, thought it over, and fell back to sleep. Attendance is never marked in that class. I was way too tired to learn anything anyway.

I woke up at 2:00 and showered for my 3:00 class. I was getting ready to leave, when I heard a knock on our door. I opened it and it was the guys from the room next to ours. His class is next to mine, and we walked together once. I was actually really surprised that he stopped by to have me walk with them. I grabbed my things and we went to class. When we were walking, he asked me why I never sat with this guy and this girl we hang out with sometimes who are in my class. I told him I didn't know. The truth is, I thought it'd be awkward to sit with them after sitting by myself for so long. When I got to class, I sat with them, because I figured why not? It wasn't awkward at all. I'll probably sit there again.

I had hoped that class was canceled. A sign was posted on the door saying if our professor wasn't there after 15 min. we could leave. Of course he showed up. After class I sat around my room. I was surprised by another knock on my door, when the guys I walked to class with asked me if I wanted to go eat with them. So I went with them. I cleaned my room and did homework.

I asked my friend if he could give me a ride to the Greyhound station next Wednesday for Thanksgiving. It should be a long 3 hour drive to Tracy.

My hair is getting really long. I don't think I'm going to cut it yet. I'm not going to let it get as long as it was before, but I feel like waiting.

Twilight looks like a dumb movie, and sounds like a dumb book.

I love Thursdays. Early mornings are refreshing, and it's the start of my weekend.

My Heart Is Open Today

This morning I was extremely tired. But somehow I got out of bed. I showered and left for class. When I got there, everyone was waiting for our professor. Apparently she had a "migraine" and canceled class. I really think she was just too lazy to get her obese self out of bed. I left the class really pissed off because I could have slept in. I was going to get some breakfast, when I saw some friends sitting outside. I hung with them for an hour or so. Then I fell back to sleep for a while. I woke up a few hours before my 6:00 class. I grabbed some food and hung out. I was so annoyed in that class. I found out I have a speech due next week and the entire two hours I was in there, these two ugly girls sitting behind me were talking. I practically ran out of there when it was time to leave. I came back to my room, grabbed a sandwich from the DC store, then played some video games with my roommate.

I'm watching The Shield right now. Its so weird how I never watched that show before. It gets really addicting. I want to find out what happens on Wikipedia but I know it'll ruin the show for me.

I started on a new song for TSoW. The other song I'm working on is only going to be guitar and vocals, with no software instruments. This new one is pretty much the opposite. It's all software instruments. I'm gonna add some vocals eventually. I'm really liking it though.

I am pretty happy with a few things right now. I have some friends around here. I'm feeling something amazing. The holidays are coming up. I'm becoming more focused on my school work. I'm forgetting lame people. Things are great.

I Love You, I Hope You Don't Mind

Another uneventful day. I woke up early this morning. I laid around until 11. I showered and headed to class. Music Appreciation is unbelievably boring. After class I grabbed some money from the ATM and bought some food. I ate in my room before I headed out for my Astronomy class. That class isn't AS boring as Music Appreciation, but it's close. After Astronomy I came to my room and relaxed. I finished my essay and watched The Shield with my roommate.

Heroes was amazing tonight. I always get so upset when it ends on a cliffhanger. Matt Parkman is a pedophile.

I feel like I have some friends here. I've been having more conversations than I did about a month ago. I like it.

I'm excited to head to Tracy next week. Thanksgiving is always a happy time.

Time to read before I get my 5 hours of sleep.

I Was Left In This State Of Love

Today was a short day. I woke up around noon and laid around. My roommate's friend started banging on my door trying to wake . It was annoying. I took a shower and after what seemed like forever, my roommate and I went to go eat. We came back to our room and played Gears of War 2 for four hours. I had no idea we played for that long. Then I did some homework and watched The Shield. Such a good show. Nothing big today.

Just Sleep, Just Dream

I'm so sleepy right now. It's 8:00 on a Saturday night and I'm honestly considering going to bed. We'll see.

Yesterday was fun. I hung with some friends. We sat around and it was cool. Then we went over the levee again. We sat there for a while and talked. My roommate was extremely drunk. The whole night he was getting in people's faces and arguing. When it was time to leave, me and my friend tried to get him up the hill. As we started getting him up the hill, he spun away from us and fell face first into the concrete ground. As funny as it was, I was worried about him. He was moaning in pain and couldn't make out words. We sat there a little longer because we were afraid to move him. Finally we got him up the hill and walked back to the dorms. I laid him down in bed and he fell asleep. I waited an hour afterwards, just to make sure he was okay, then went to sleep. I woke up this morning and had to pee. I went to the bathroom and when I walked out of the bathroom door, I saw my roommate walking into our friends room. I followed him. He said he felt like he broke his shoulder, and that he didn't remember anything from last night. We told him what happened. I was relieved that he was laughing (and that he was making out full words). He said he needed to go to the hospital, so we showered, ate, then left. After spending what seemed like the whole day in the ER waiting room, my roommate was free to leave. We grabbed some much needed food, and came home. It feels good to lay down.

Last night some of us were talking and I was pretty surprised when they told me they thought I was a cool guy. I guess I figured I was just overlooked or something.

I actually feel like I fit in.

Skratch hasn't replied still.

Sour Altoids are too good.

I had Quizno's for the first time today. It was alright. I think I like Subway a little better.

The "positive" lyrics are coming along.

A Walking Habit With Haste

3:35 a.m. I'm pretty sure my sleeping pattern is fucked.

I got back a while ago from going to the movies with a couple of friends. I saw the new James Bond movie. I've never seen one, so I figured I should go. I was pretty impressed. It was cool. It was crazy to see such a huge theatre, instead of the little crappy ones in Tracy's mall.

This morning was hell. I stayed up all night, except for the 20 minutes prior to when I got up. I don't think I've ever been so tired. I took a hot shower and I'm almost positive I started dreaming in there. I went to class and hated pretty much anyone who showed any sign of a full night's sleep. I sat in my English class thinking about how ugly my teacher is, and if she's a bitch because there were probably no men who gave her any attention in her life.

*You don't deserve to be going through such a hard time right now. I hope you know things will be alright and that I'm here for you. I love you.*

Tonight I had another weird freak out about my parents getting old. I saw some guy in the theatre we were in with (what looked like) his father. The man was old and in a wheelchair. Thinking about how my parents are getting older scares me so much. And then I automatically feel like I don't appreciate them enough. Which is probably true. I just want them to know I love them I guess.

Writing positive lyrics is hard. Every attempt I've ever made at writing a "nice" song has been crappy. This time I'm going to just take my time.

So Skratch hasn't contacted me back AGAIN. I'm getting really sick of it.

I'm doing pretty bad in school. I'm actually really worried about it. I think I have to really focus or something. Blah.

I wonder what I'm going to do tomorrow.

People make me laugh.

So Drown Me, If You Can

It's 3 in the morning. I'm up typing a paper that's due tomorrow. I have about a page or so left but I felt like I needed a break.

Today I listened to Circa Survive's album Juturna for the first time in a really long time. I forgot how good that album is. I used to listen to that album every morning before school last year. I didn't really like their second one. Hopefully the new one they're working on is good.

FN MTV is stupid. Am I wrong or do they only play like a minute of each video? And it's always the same group of videos. It's annoying. What if I wanted to watch the whole Beyonce video and not have it interupted with Lil Wayne? Thanks a lot Pete Wentz.

I have class at 9. Which means I have to wake up at 8. I'm debating on just not going to sleep. It'd be so hard to wake up. Besides, after that class I'm done. I can sleep for the rest of the day.

I'll be in Sacramento for three weeks straight. I'm pretty happy about it. It gets tiring going to Tracy. Hopefully this weekend is a fun one. I can use some good times.

I'm going to start writing for a Pop-Punk project that I have in the works. The idea of it actually only came up yesterday, but I'm really excited about it. I'll be doing guitar and all of the other instruments. Thank you MacBook.

If all goes as planned, Anthony Animosity, Arturo Arsonist, Kady HaHa, Jiggaboo Joy, and I (EJ Aculate) will be going to Slims to watch City and Colour together. Myspace names are funny.

Reality Television is stupid.

You Left Me Dreaming

So I should be working on the rough draft of a paper that's due in two days, but I can't bring myself to start. I'm not really liking how I feel right now. I don't want to do anything. I just want to sleep or something. It's probably because I had very little contact with anyone today. It was weird.

I'm practically finished with a new song for TSoW. I like this one the most, but I always like the newest songs I write the most. I'll probably record this week or next week. For this song I'm going to try and keep it just guitar and vocals. I don't want to go too crazy with my Macbook. Plus I'm due for a simple song. Now I need lyrics.

The one thing I dislike most about being in these dorms is how not private the rooms are. I miss being at home where I can sing as loud as I want. I know if I want to pursue TSoW I'll have to get used to singing in front of people, but I don't want to be that weird guy singing in his room super loud.

Dante was in Sacramento yesterday! I saw him for about a minute. Haha it was alright though. It was cool seeing him.

City and Colour is going to be in San Francisco in January. I don't care if I start classes that week. I HAVE to see him. Tickets go on sale on Friday. As soon as I wake up, I'm going to buy mine.

I can't wait until Winter. Things are so nice around that time. Ice skating is going to be amazing.

FINALLY got messaged back by Skratch. They sent me an e-mail address and told me to write there about the problem. So maybe I'm NOT getting robbed.

Perfect Lines, Troubled Lives

Today I had an exam for my Music Appreciation class. I'm pretty sure I did horrible. I thought I'd wake up early and study, but instead I woke up late, and was 5 minutes late to class. Pretty lame.

I have no class tomorrow and I am REALLY happy about that. I hate the classes I have on Tuesdays. I wish I would have done something tonight since I have tomorrow free. Oh well.

I'm writing a new song for TSoW. I started making two songs and threw them together. It took me a while to think of that.

I need a haircut. Its starting to get a little too curly for my liking.
I also ate tons of the food I bought today.
I'm definitely going to be fat one day.

STILL no word from Skratch.

Darling You Fucked Up

Feeling like poop. Catching colds isn't fun.

Visiting Tracy was pretty cool. Friday I saw some friends. It was great. Saturday was really good too. I watched Zack And Miri Make A Porno. It was really funny. Except I really don't like that Seth Rogen always has the EXACT same role in every movie. It bothered me for some reason. I also ate WAY too much that day. I felt so sick. Sunday was okay. I got woken up really early to go to church with my family. My mom doesn't know I don't believe in god or any religion, and I'm not going to tell her because I'd rather avoid unnecessary arguing. I sat there listening to stupid songs being sung badly while little kids ran around screaming. Awesome. Afterwards I cleaned, did laundry, and headed home.

I drove to Tracy and I drove to Sacramento. It was weird because both times my dad fell asleep and I thought "what if I were to get in an accident right now?"  It freaked me out. I was more scared of my dad being alright than me. I don't know what I'd do if something happened to him. I seriously look up to him so much.

STILL no word from Skratch.

Does That Dress Fit Alright?

I just woke up from the best sleep ever.
It was great.

Yesterday was cool. I hung out with a few friends. Two of them had been up for over 40 hours (about 58 now) because of some drugs they took from this guy down the hall. It was interesting to watch them function. One tried typing an essay that was due today and was having such a hard time trying to focus. So he typed a bunch of nonsense and somehow tied it in to his topic. I was impressed.

The guy down the hall seems like the saddest person I've ever seen. He seemed also to be a compulsive liar. He talked about buying a shotgun, stealing people's stuff and selling it on ebay, going to Oakland to get drugs, and some other stuff. You'd think I should be alarmed by him, but honestly I can tell he's not telling the truth. He also talked about trying to kill himself multiple times. That I believe. I guess he hasn't made any friends around here. I know how that feels. I think the only reason he keeps selling his drugs to those guys is because he's lonely, and likes to have an actual conversation with someone. I guess he withdrew from all of his classes so he probably won't be here long. I wonder what will happen to him.

I added tons of people to TSoW yesterday so I'm expecting a good amount of plays today.
I have to send my next payment to Skratch Magazine today. I'm worried because they haven't sent me the contract they were supposed to give me. I better not be getting ripped off. Oh well. We'll see what happens.

Tracy tonight. I'm really excited. But kind of upset that Lydia is playing at the mall here tomorrow, while I'm gone. That's my luck. HA

I Know The World...

You'll only get what you think you deserve.

1st

Figured I should start writing in one of these. I feel like I think so much during the day, it'd be nice to just put some thoughts down.

Yesterday I had an Astronomy exam and I ACTUALLY think I did good on it. I'm pretty happy.
Then I sat around until around 5-ish. Me and my roommate and some guys went to go eat. Then we all went to do a couple of things and met with a few more people. We went down by the levee and hung out. It was cool.

It's nice to do something besides stare at this screen.

Well I had a 9am class this morning.
Definitely should have went to bed earlier.

I'm actually excited to go down to Tracy this weekend.