I Know It's Not You My Dear, I Know It's Not You

I'm sitting at home tonight. I worked pretty long today so it feels nice to just sit around and relax.

The new Heroes season looks so cool.



So I've been stressing lately about the month that's coming up. I need to find a place to live soon. I need to see if I can transfer to the JC Penney in Sacramento. I need to find a new car. I need more money. I've been freaking out. But it looks like the living situation might be alright. We've been looking and everything. I did some math and I think I might be able to make it this school year without getting another loan, even though it would help me a lot. I'm going to talk to my manager this week about whether or not I'll be able to transfer. I'm looking into car auctions to see if I can maybe go get a car. It's been a stressful month.

I love this song.



This video is kind of cool too.


Haven't listened to them in so long.


Ace Enders is so fucking good.



I love this song.

She Tore Down All My Walls, Left Me For All She Had Known

I've had the stomach flu the last few days. It sucked so bad. I think I'm just about better, so that's good. I haven't been to work since Monday, so my check is going to be pretty small.

I hate that I spent so much time at home, but I felt way too sick to record anything.

I downloaded Daphne Loves Derby's acoustic ep the other day. I haven't listened to them in a while.


I don't like the little asian kid at the beginning of the video.
The acoustic version is better in my opinion.

Today's the first day I feel like I can eat real food. I kind of want a burger but I know that probably won't do me any good.

I've Been Lying Wide Awake Paralyzed By The Buzzing Of The Television

I've been going to bed so late lately. Oh well. I don't work tomorrow so it doesn't matter.

Listening to Jonny Craig's new songs. He's so fucking good. It's ridiculous.

I'm pretty happy I have the next two days off. I need a break from JC Penney.

So my birthday was pretty nice. I spent it with all of my real friends. Thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday and such.

I like the new Set Your Goals CD. I'm not too sure about the song with Hayley Williams though. Her rap makes ME embarrassed.

Listening to Armor For Sleep. I haven't listened to them in such a long time.



I've been feeling so uninspired lately. I don't know what it is. I just want to sleep all day.

I keep thinking about how in the Fall I'll be leaving again and living in Sacramento. I'm slowly starting to wish I didn't have to. I'm going to miss everyone here so much. I feel like I'm actually included with them. I don't want that to change.

I really need to start on that whole "writing project" thing. I always think about it while I'm working.

Joy bought me this book Mark Z. Danielewski (author of House of Leaves) wrote. It's called Only Revolutions. I really like it so far.

Shrugging, I
gift her my laugh.
It's lift so staggering.
Overcomes her. She
hyperventilates. Bends agonized.
What hurt I deliver with just a
hatless shuffleandflap. When
suddenly by a wild of only Wind,
I strangely blurt:
- I promise I'll never leave you.
Flash follws, searing lime to wide.
Fascinating.
She curtsies.
-I'm Hailey. Hi.

But I'm the sizzle preceding
disaster. Only by his panicky
squawk am I overcome.
With laughter. Heaves.
Doubling over. Wheezing.
What calamity I bring with just a
shoeless pirouette. When
by Flash, searing lime to wide,
I weirdly demand:
-I Wish you'd just chill.
A Wind follows.
Curious.
He bows.
-Hi. I'm Sam.

This song is so good.

Let's Drink To Memories We Shared

Im sitting at the dog park. Kind of in a weird mood. Im not really sure what it is.

I keep listening to old songs. They make me think. I never really stay home anymore. It feels like I need to constantly be out and doing things. I remember a few years ago, being out with friends without a care in the world. We'd just hang out. We were all so innocent and naive to what would become of us. It's those moments I want to relive. I've never been so happy.

I was talking to Joy and she reminded me that this is going to be my last year of being a teenager. I'll be twenty next july. Its scary that I'm getting older. I'll never get a chance to feel the way I did when I was surrounded by my friends on late summer nights.

I'm not really sure what the point of this blog is.

And Even Though The Moment Passed Me By, I Still Can't Turn Away

I just woke up. I actually got to sleep in this morning which is pretty nice.

I hung out with Art and Johnny last night. It turned out a lot funner than I thought it'd be.

It's weird to listen to this:


I haven't really listened to them in a while.

This song is really good:


The Goo Goo Dolls are way too talented

Birthday in a couple of days. Not too excited.

Time Is Coming To An End, Prepare For The Worst, Try To Keep Unity

I suck so bad at posting stuff on here. I've just been busy lately.

I have couple of days off from work. I'm pretty happy about that. Today I didn't do much except lay on my hammock for a couple of hours and edit this song I'm working on. It's coming out pretty good.

I watched the Michael Jackson memorial today. It was pretty long. I tried recording it for my mom but the video tape I had wasn't long enough. We definitely need a DVR.

I made a Twitter account today. It's actually cooler than I thought it was.

Tonight Joy and I went to Brooke and Anthony's place and watched Mallrats with everyone. I love that movie.

My birthday is on Saturday and I'm not too excited for it. It's not like I don't like my birthday or that it's not going to be fun or something, I just feel like it's not too big of a deal.

My mom asked if I wanted to go eat dinner in the city on Saturday after work. I told her that I was planning on hanging out with my friends for my birthday. Then I found out that they were going camping, so I told my mom that dinner in the city sounded good after all. Now, I guess they might not go camping and want to possibly have a little get together Saturday. So I'll have to tell my mom nevermind again. I'm going to wait and see if they're for sure not going camping before I cancel anything. I'm sure my mom won't care too much anyway.

I downloaded the new Born of Osiris album today. I only really like one song, but the others sounds pretty good. They still have those really melodic parts that I like.

I'm excited that I can go to Art and Anthony's show on Sunday. I haven't really seen them play besides their practices. It should be pretty fun.

I might try playing at this open mic thing Kelly was telling me about tonight. It sounds pretty cool.

I love this song:

Thanks George Lopez for getting it stuck in my head the last two nights.

I listened to this album for the first time in really long:

Oh nostalgia.

I probably only like two songs from Flyleaf.
This one:


and this one: