Oh No, I Won't Let Them Take You, Won't Let Them Take You

I haven't posted on here in a bit.
I've sort of been busy.
It's getting sort of tiring.

I have the next two days off so I'm pretty happy about that.
I am stressing about school. I really hope I do good this semester.
I am actually feeling better about my money situation. I get paid this Friday and I'll have a good amount left over after I pay rent and everything.

Larissa and I have been getting closer.
I really like where things are going.
We're going to spend Halloween together and rent a movie since I have to work.
Honestly just watching a movie together that night sounds great.

Having Moose around was really nice. I missed him so much.
It was definitely a hassle to take care of him though.
It's probably good he isn't staying with me.
My parents know how to take care of him so he's happy.

I might audition for a band next week. I'm kind of excited.
Sort of nervous too. I hope it works out.

I hate having to wait for new heroes every week.

I saw Paranormal Activity. Definitely pretty creepy. I think I saw the alternate ending?
Or the original ending? Idk. She killed the guy, and got shot. Which ever one that was.

I really started liking Say Anything today. I never gave them a really good listen before.









So good.

Dreaming, Picture That A Whole World In A Slumber

Tonight was so great.
I've never really been on a real date before.
Larissa and I went to Buca Di Beppo and got full way too fast.
Then we decided to go watch a movie and watched Zombieland.
It was so funny.
After the movie Larissa and I went back to the Starbucks where my car was parked and we stood around and talked.
We got through the awkward end of the date pretty good.
Really good actually.
Then we went home.

Apparently she liked my mix CDs too.

My friends were all going to a party tonight.
I started getting ready to go with them, even though I didn't really want to go.
Luckily my roommate Kevin said he wasn't going to go either so I stayed and hung out with him and our friend Colleen.

I'm really afraid we might get evicted.
We keep getting warnings. We got two noise violations and one parking violation.
All three were one person's fault. -_-

I work tomorrow from 4 until 10:30. I'm hoping it's not a crappy day.

I sort of want to get up early and do my laundry, but I have a feeling it's not going to happen until Sunday.

Lately there have been so many drugs around me.
It's sort of depressing.
I'm glad I stopped smoking. I didn't like what it did to me.
I think I only like drinking, and lately I haven't even been in the mood to drink to get really drunk.
I have way too many things to worry about.

I have sort of been slacking off with homework.
I'm going to completely stop this now before it gets bad.
No more late nights on weekdays.
Going to class every Monday and Wednesday.
Do homework every night.
I need to.

I Met A Girl Who Knows How To Live

I just finished cleaning up my place.
It's still not as clean as I would want it, but it's definitely a lot better.
Really tired now though.

I'm moving on, and it feels crazy.
I'm sorry if it's soon.

Kevin and I are sitting on our couch on our computers and listening to music.
It's really chill.

My parents are taking me out to breakfast tomorrow.
I'm pretty excited about that.

I'm wondering when Larissa is going to be free to hang out again.
She's so busy.

I'm going to try and not drink during weekdays anymore.
It completely ruins the day after.

I'm showing Kevin some of my music.
Everyone's always surprised by my voice.

I should be asleep.

And If We Lose It All Tonight, I Promise You I Won't Forget Your Face

Today was a crazy day.

I woke up to the sound of the rain and wind banging against my window.
I fell back to sleep and woke up to a call from Larissa.
After a while I got out of bed and got ready.
Then I went to Starbucks to hang with Larissa for a bit.
The drive was so crazy.
After Starbucks I had to go to work and was stuck in really bad traffic.
It seemed like the storm affected everyone.
I finished everything I had to do at work.
Came home and did some homework.
My roommate was playing his music too loud and the security was called for the second time on us.
I'm afraid we might get evicted eventually.
I drank a few beers and hung out with everyone.
Now I'm in bed wishing I wasn't so used to being up this late.

Larissa gave me a couple of blank CDs so I can burn the playlists I made.
That's pretty cool.

I have class tomorrow at 12.
I hate how I think of that as early.

After class I'm cleaning up this apartment so much.
It has to look good for my parents.

I was worried about a couple of papers I have due.
Luckily one's not due until November and the other isn't due until the 21st.

It seems everyone who read that post about me not trying anymore made an attempt to talk to me.
That didn't last long though.
Oh well.
Happens.

I actually really like the new season of Heroes so far.
And I really like Glee.
Mondays and Wednesdays, son.

Still really want to see Paranormal Activity.
I'm going to see if Larissa wants to see it.
Hopefully she's down, because it seems like no one else wants to watch it.

I'm thinking about quitting smoking.
Maybe.

Got a text saying she had a bad dream.
Damn old people.

Sleep time.

If I Could Know Your Thoughts, If I Could Read Your Mind

Strange day.

If it's what you want, then I'll leave you alone.
It sucks, but I understand.

That was the only bad part of my day.

I woke up in time for school.
Paid attention in both of my classes.
Got out of school early.
Made a sandwich.
Went to Starbucks with Larissa.
Came home and talked to my parents.
Relaxed for a little while.
Made a really good dinner.
And now we're watching 28 Weeks Later.

Pretty crazy movie.

I have a tumblr as of last night.
Still trying to get used to it.

I really want to do some serious recording sometime this week.
I don't know why I can't sit down and do it.

Work has been getting easier.
I feel like I'm getting everything down.
Way too much stuff you have to learn about suits.

I've had this song in my head for the last hour for some reason.

This one too.


It's late at night when I really want to talk to someone.
I don't know why.

Excited for Wednesday.
I kind of want tomorrow to just be over with.

I really want to see Paranormal Activity this week.

It's Clouded What We Know And I'm Losing Everything

So tired of making an effort. I'm done trying to talk to you.
This isn't to anyone in particular.
It's actually a few people.
So if you don't hear from me for a while, you're probably included in this.
Feel free to change it.
Just don't feel like caring when you don't care back.

ANYWAY...

I was 10 minutes late for work today. So lame.
I woke up and freaked out about how much I overslept.
Hopefully I can fix my sleeping patterns.

I don't work tomorrow.
Pretty happy about that.
I have school from 12-2:45 and after that I'm supposed to be getting coffee with a friend.
That should be pretty cool.

I have to take this quiz in a few minutes on some stuff I have to read.
After that I'm going to try and clean our place as much as possible.
My parents are stopping by this week so I have to do my best.

Everything I Loved And Feared Had All At Once Disappeared

I just worked today. Didn't do much else. I like my coworkers.

Was completely surprised by my friend visiting me. I wish I wasn't so awkward and shy.
I remember being younger and shy, and thinking that I'd grow out of it and be alright. I guess it's not happening. Hopefully I can pretend like I'm not nervous all of the time.

Tried recording a bit tonight. It took me a while because I had to change my settings to get the best sound. Might re-record what I got done though because I had to stay sort of quiet since it was late.

From what I hear, the scene here in Sac is really different than the 209. Seems sort of lamer? Not sure. I guess we'll see.

I feel like I've been thinking too much. Don't have too many people to talk to. I can type stuff here or something, but it's not the same as speaking with someone and having a real conversation. I'm hoping that'll change. We'll see.

This song keeps playing in my head.


I'm excited for Monday.

We'll Live Like Lovers, Who've Never Known Heartache

Haven't posted in a few days.

Lately I've been working a lot. I sure could use the hours.

I'm trying to keep up with school. It can be hard sometimes.
Or maybe I just make it hard on myself?

My roommates went home this weekend. It's weird being here by myself.

I'm going to actually start recording tomorrow night. I get off at 6:30 and won't have anything better to do. My goal is to finish two songs, minus the vocals.



Amazing scene.

It's weird when you realize that the people you consider close friends don't think of you the same way. Sorry for trying.

New things are happening in my life. It's strange and scary.

I found this video the other day. I can't stop listening to it.

I'm Trying To Feel Something That's Real

I don't know how it happened, but all of those feelings came back.

I'm sick of everything.

I'm not happy.

I don't know how to change that.

It sucks.

Things won't ever be the way it was.

How Do We Get So Close Without Us Knowing Where We Would Be?

Played some pong tonight.
Not drunk. Not sober. I hate that middle.

I'm going to be alone this weekend because my roommates are going to LoveFest and I have to work. Kind of sucks. I need something to do.

I bought a recording mic today at Guitar Center. I'm hoping it's good because it cost $60. I paid for it with my gift card, but still.

Still looking for a band to join.
Might want to try and start one.
We'll see.

I'm so broke right now I'm actually really scared.
I'm going to see how much money I get tomorrow from my pay check.
Most of it will probably go towards my rent.
Kind of sucks.



Really like that song.
I don't know why I've been in such a Jonny Craig mood.

I want to wake up early tomorrow.
I'm going to do my homework.
Try out my mic and see if I can start recording.
Then go to work.

I guess my roommate's inviting some friends from his hometown over tomorrow so it should be interesting.

Life.
Ha.