No One Else Will Have Me, Only You

I've been super lazy about posting stuff on here.

Well I'm sick and it sucks. It was just the other day that I thought "I'm glad I'm not sick right now".

Christmas was alright. I didn't get anything too exciting but it was nice. I got some new headphones that I really needed and two new books! And a new beanie that I really like!

Yesterday was the first day I had the house to myself in a long time. Joy came over in the morning and we cooked a big breakfast. It was great. Then we laid in bed and watched Garden State. Afterward we cleaned and then worked out. It was a nice relaxing day.

I found a few CDs that I haven't listened to for one reason or another and put them on my iTunes. I remembered why I loved those albums so much.

I'm getting ready to record this week. I wanted to start recording yesterday but since I'm sick I don't feel like doing much of anything. Except I did figure out the body of a new song me and Brittany are writing.

The other night me and Joy watched that new Will Smith movie Seven Pounds. It was REALLY good. It's probably one of my new favorite movies. Will Smith is such a good actor. It's weird to think of how goofy he was on The Fresh Prince.

I decided I'm going to spend as little money as I can because I want to buy a car. I figure if I try and get a job and once I get my loan, I can maybe buy a cheap used car that can get me around. Plus I have to start saving if I want to find an apartment for next year. I wish being an adult wasn't so stressful.

I can't wait to get my life together though. I can see it happening.

I think I'm starting to already get bored of Tracy. The other night I had nothing to do and no one to hang with so I just drove around for an hour. It wasn't too fun.

I'm getting sick of Moose waking me up at 6 every morning. That dog's weird. He sleeps all day and all night. Oh well I like my lazy dog.

Say Goodnight Babe, Close Your Eyes, Whisper That You Love Me

I finished all of my Christmas shopping today. I spent so much money. I'm kind of stressing over it. Oh well.

This morning Moose woke me up at 5 a.m. because he had to pee. I didn't go back to sleep until around 7. Around 9 I went and picked up Joy and we got some coffee. We watched this movie called The Land of Women or something that I really like. We laid around for a while and then got ready to go to the mall. She met up with her friends while I shopped for her. After the mall I went home and sat around. Later on I met up with Briana and we got Kerstyn and Bree. We drove around and didn't really do anything. It was fun either way.

For some reason I'm really tired right now.
Probably because the whole 5 a.m. thing.

I wanted to post these videos I recorded of me playing some songs, but I think I'm gonna just post them tomorrow because they're taking forever to upload and I'm sleepy.

Uninteresting post.

Bold Or Undefined This Will Get Your Attention!

So I'm laying on my bed and Moose is sleeping next to me. It's super warm in my room and I love it.

Today was a good day.
I woke up around 11 or so and heard my parents and grandparents leaving to have breakfast. I sat around and finally started cleaning and what not. After I finished everything, I picked up Joy and we ate at Mongolian BBQ (possibly the best place in the world). After eating an insane amount of noodles, we took our left over boxes and went to the mall. I wanted to go Christmas shopping. We went to Sears and I found my mom's gift (a blender). If you know her (I don't know why anyone on here would know my mom) don't tell her what I got. That was the only gift I found which kind of sucked. We left because Joy had to go to work. Afterwards I called Jordan and picked her up. We watched The Rules of Attraction at my house. That was a really weird movie. I didn't pay that much attention though because we were talking and Moose decided he'd do everything possible to get our attention. After the movie, I took Jordan home, came back home, and ate my left over Mongolian BBQ. I watched an episode of SNL with Justin Timberlake. I don't care if it's really lame to say it, but he's REALLY talented. After that I was inspired to play some music so I practiced some TSoW songs. It was nice to play guitar and sing outloud for once. I picked Joy up from work and we got food. We hung out for a while and went home.

Lately I've been listening to I Set My Friends On Fire a lot. I read all of their lyrics today and I was pretty surprised that they were actually good. I thought he just said a bunch of random dumb stuff, but I guess not.

"I hope he knows, that curvilinear gyrating space,
Won't be the only thing he'll taste down there.
Stop to think about it.
If we've both flooded the same skin...
You've tasted me,
I've tasted you,
Who knows how many places,
My tongue has been?
My tongue has been..."

Gross!

Last night was nice. I hung with Art, Kady, Anthony, Brooke, and Aaron. It was really fun.

I'm jealous of Moose passed out, so I'm done here.

No One We've Ever Known Has Really Changed That Much Since High School

Finished my last final today. I am VERY happy about that. I've been so stress from school lately. Next semester better be easier. I'm only taking four classes. Well, I'm looking forward to sitting around for a month.

I've been listening to The Wonder Year's christmas song all morning. It's great. I love reading their blogs. Who knew musicians had real lives?

The Scene Aesthetic has posted a million bulletins about Eric coming home from his dumb missionary thing. What if he came back and was just like "Dude, I don't want to sing anymore." THAT would be funny. Shitty, but funny.

So last night was such a big failure, it's unbelievable. Apparently Padraic and Drew planned on going clubbing with these girls they knew, and I was going to tag along because what the hell would I have done otherwise? Well the girls bailed or something, but we were still excited to go to the club. We got dressed (I had to borrow a shirt from Padraic because clubs apparently aren't too keen on Band Tees and solid colored t-shirts), and started drinking the handle of Smirnoff we bought. We talked about bands and youtubed videos for about two hours. Finally we were ready to leave and our friend Jared said he would drive us because he was sober and what not. We ran to Padraic's car and went to a club called Barcode, using the directions I printed out. We got to Barcode and ran to the line because it was raining. We were there for about 20 seconds before security told us they were only allowing dress shoes that night. We ran back to Padraics car and started heading to our backup club, in case Barcode didn't work out. We took forever to find the club because the website didn't really give us an address, just the intersection, and we forgot what the club was called due to the vodka we consumed. We finally found the club and ran around the building to the entrance. We start pulling out our IDs, when Padraic asked the security guy if it was 18+ that night. Of course it wasn't. We call Jared to come back and jump into the car. We head back to our dorm and decide we'll look up another club and head back out. We find a club called The Rage that sounds great. We get the address, and run to the car again. When we reach the street, we start looking around everywhere. We notice that where The Rage was said to be, Barcode was also. After looking for an hour, we finally admit our defeat, grab some food, and head back home. Sure enough, The Rage was renamed Barcode and the website we went to had us looking for a non-existent nightclub. I spent the rest of the night "studying" for my final I had this morning.

I can not wait to get home. It's crazy how excited I am.

I'm even more excited now to record because I'm going to be recording and writing with my friend Brittany, who I haven't seen in a really long time. That should be really fun. I've already started making a list of recording equipment I have to buy to make recording a bit easier. Buying those and christmas presents are going to definitely eat away at my bank account. Yay for the season!

I Sank Into Her And Got Lost In The Weight Of One

I should be studying right now, but I can't seem to take in anything I read. I'll probably wait a bit before I attempt to again.

This past weekend I went to Sonora with Padraic and Drew. It was definitely not what I expected. It was the mountainiest mountain town I've ever been to. Padraic's friends were pretty cool. It was a relaxing weekend before finals. Of course we got lost on the way home and I had to have Joy read me the questions to a final I was planning on finishing when I got home. It was due at 8. I'm pretty sure I bombed it. Oh well.

I turned in my Comms final today. I'm sure I passed that class. That's a relief. For the last class, our professor asked every person in the room questions about them. Somehow he missed me, which I didn't mind at all. Then this lady who has our class brought cookies and sparkling cider for the class. It was cool. Except I was eating my cookie and realized I didn't know anyone in that class. So I ate my cookie fast while everyone talked and then left. Oh well.

I watched Once yesterday. I love that movie so much.

I can't wait until I'm home. I can really use the break from being here.

It's weird how unimportant I am to people. I don't think I ever have been completely important to somebody. Except Joy. She makes me feel like I matter.

I have two songs in the works. That means those two and the cover are going to be recorded this month. I can't wait.

At some point in Sonora my phone charger broke. I don't know how. I woke up and it was broken. So I'm trying to make my phone last until Friday. I used my friend's charger today. I'm going to see if I can use it tomorrow or something also.

This christmas is going to be amazing.

Everything Keeps Me Remembering Of The Girl I Had To Leave All Alone

I feel crappy.

I didn't mean to make you think I don't miss you.
I just wanted to stay busy this weekend so this last week could go by fast.
I'm sorry

I hope they're not right

"You’re what keeps me believing this world’s not gone dead
Strength in my bones put the words in my head
When they pour out to paper, it's all for you.
'Cause that’s what you do."

I Woke With Distaste, Should We Go Outside?

*sigh*
2 and a half hours of sleep.
I'm exhausted.

I just want these two weeks to be over.

I'm not that worried about finals. I should be alright.

Tired.
VERY tired.

You Draw Me Pictures, I Write You Songs

I don't care if I sound lame for thinking it, but The Word Alive is actually really good.
Too bad Blessthefall, Escape The Fate, Greeley Estates and those bands trade so many members.

Well I haven't posted anything in a while. I don't know why but I haven't been motivated to write in these lately. Oh well.

Last night I went to sleep at 6:30. I woke up at around 2-3. By the time I went outside it was dark again. Never even saw sunlight. Now I can't sleep, even though I really want to. My sleeping pattern is fucked.

I have a million things due this week. I'm so stressed about school. I hate it. I just want break to be here already. Finals are going to be super hard. It sucks. During my academic advising meeting, I kind of came to the conclusion that I might not want to be an accountant. I don't want to do something I don't love. Seriously that would have been crappy. I think I still want to be a business major, but I'm not exactly sure what I want to be. I need to brainstorm some ideas or something. I need to register for classes soon. I wish things were easier.

On the other hand, I have been really happy lately. The holidays are almost here. Joy and I are going to make gingerbread houses! I've never done that before! We're also going to go ice skating, drive around and look at decorated houses, make Moose a water bowl for Christmas, sleepovers, and all sorts of fun stuff. It's amazing how happy that girl makes me. I'm feeling something I never have.

I've started writing two new songs. I might end up combining them. Or throwing one away. But the newest one I'm writing I like a lot. I started to record the cover I'm doing but I don't like the acoustics in my dorm room. So I might re-record it at my parents house.

This last weekend was pretty uneventful. Did a lot of nothing around the dorms. Oh well, I still had fun. Sexdrive is really funny.

New York, I Love You looks like such a good movie. I can't wait until it's out.

I wish I had a car here. I am starving right now, and there are plenty of fast-food places nearby.

I've been messing around with the distortion and what not on GarageBand. I wish it was better. I think I'm better off just mic-ing an amp or something.

I'm debating on staying up all night. The only problem is I have my research paper to do tomorrow and a speech I need to work on. Fuck I'm stressed.

I'm feeling really anxious right now. Not sure why. It sucks.

It's the night that really bothers me. Everyone's asleep, when I can't. No one to talk to. I just want to pass out and wake up to tomorrow.

Remind Them Once Again, That You Can't Kill Heroes

I haven't posted anything in about a week. I was thinking of going over each day since the last time I wrote, but I've decided I'll just sum it up like this: I'm happy. Everything is going pretty good for me. I'm back home from a good Thanksgiving break. It sucks I won't see Joy for about three weeks, but I'll be in Tracy for a month after that so that should make up for it. When I was down there we hung out with Art and Anthony and Kady. It was really nice. I miss them a lot. On Saturday, Joy and I went to San Francisco. The seven story mall down there is crazy. I don't know how I've never gone there before. I bought two books and walked around A LOT. We watched The Bridge To Terabithia when we got home. Why is that a really mature movie for Disney? It was pretty good.

I have a new song finished. The one with all software instruments. It's ready to be posted but myspace won't let me upload songs right now. It's pretty annoying.

I'm really happy with the people in my life right now. Honestly I just want to go on with my life and never have to deal with certain people again. I'm glad to be rid of their negativity, immaturity, and hypocrisy. If you're offended, I probably mean you. I hope you'll be happy alone.

I am ready to go back to sleep right about now. I actually didn't mind my English class this morning, except the whole waking up thing.

I'm really glad I got a couple of books. Reading again is nice. I hardly ever read anything anymore.