Build My Dreams, Trees Grow All Over The Streets

I haven't posted anything in a few days. So weird.

I'm in Tracy for a week. It's been pretty nice. The only thing that sucks is I haven't hung out with anyone really except with Joy. I mean I love hanging out with her, obviously, but I thought there'd be more people who wanted to see me when I got home. Oh well. I like relaxing at home.

I'm finally watching Tokyo Drift after a million years. The girl on there is crazy cute. The movie's actually pretty cool.

I bought House of Leaves yesterday. I've only read the little introduction thing so far, but I'm excited to actually start reading it.

Friday I helped Lindsay move. It wasn't as much trouble as I thought it'd be. Her old roommates sound like douche bags. Her new ones seem really cool. Maybe because when we got there, they were sitting in the living room watching Scrubs. Awesome first impression.

The bad Asian guy on Tokyo Drift looks so creepy.

That sucks so bad about the lost little girl in Tracy. I really hope she's okay.

I took Moose to the dog park yesterday and today. I love seeing him run around with the other dogs. He's so friendly to the people too. I honestly think he's the best dog.

I haven't been getting much sleep lately. It feels like the last few days have been a week or something.

If I want to record that song I really need to start in the next couple of days. Hopefully it'll come out alright.

Silverstein's new album is actually kinda cool. Weird.

I feel like I don't have anything big to look forward to. It's like each day just kind of goes by.

Fall Out Boy's new single is way too catchy.

My hair has gotten so long. I need a haircut soon.

I think I'm waking up early. And I'll be going to sleep late tonight. Which means I'm definitely not going to get enough sleep tonight.

I can't wait for Fast and Furious or whatever.

Yeah.

Sleep.

A Spoonful Of Your Sarcasm Helps The Pain Go Down

I wanted to post something last night, but I forgot.

I got sick this morning. It was horrible. I hate this sickness.

I'm in a shitty mood. I'm sick of being treated like I'm going to fuck everything up all of the time. Yeah, I made mistakes before. That doesn't mean they'll happen again. People learn from bad choices. I'm not going to just stand around and be treated like I've done something wrong when I haven't.



I love that.

I have no idea what we're doing tonight. Or what I'm doing tomorrow night.

I need food.



I love that clip.

Yeah.

We Walk Around This Town Like We Own The Streets And Stay Awake Through Summer Like We Own The Heat

I haven't listened to that song in so long.
It's so weird.

It makes me think of everything that has happened in the last four to five years.
It feels like it's been longer than that.
We weren't supposed to turn out this way.
We were all so close.
We had so much fun.
It honestly makes me so sad to think of the end result.

I don't think anyone who wasn't a part of our group of friends could understand how I felt. Even if I tried explaining it to them.



I hate thinking about all of the bad things that have happened throughout the years.
None of them should have happened.
Even the things I've done.

If I could go back to the state of mind I was in, I would.
If I could take back the bad times, I would.

I know when I'm older and I look back at my youth, it's the times with those people I'll remember. I'll remember the way I felt. I'll remember the things we did.
We had no idea what was going to happen in the future, but we were so sure of the way we felt then.

I'm sorry.




Today's weather was nice. I know it's only March, but I can already feel Summer getting closer.

I'll be home in a couple of weeks.

I think most of this blog came from me reading comments and stuff from a few years ago.
It's crazy how different everyone is.

I don't know.

I'm sick.

I'm going to try and sleep.

Here Lies Clarity In A Perfect Grave Comprised Of Perfect Steel

I haven't listened to them in so long. It seems like it's not the same as when I was really into them. Different feeling or something? Still catchy as hell though.

I think I'm getting sick and it makes me really mad. I feel so drowzy and tired right now.

This weekend was pretty cool. Friday we went to this really fun party. Everyone was really nice there. Last night was alright. Pretty chill night. Today Pad and me watched movies all day. It was cool.

I think I'm ready to write lyrics for a new TSoW song but I'm not sure what I want the topic to be about. We'll see. And I have a couple of ideas for songs to cover. I want to make sure I actually record one though.

I've been playing this game called Funny Farm that's ridiculously too hard.

In a weird mood right now.



I've been wanting to listen to them lately.

Sleep please.

Even If I Had The Nerves To Find You I Wouldn't Know What To Say

So I made it through today. I was so tired this morning. I think I did really good on my exam though. I'm pretty happy about that. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Finally.

Tonight I sat around and talked to Joy for a long time. It was nice. I miss that girl.

The new This Providence album is pretty good. It's definitely not Our Worlds Divorce, but there are a few good songs. I keep listening to this song called Sure As Hell. It's so good.

I think I'm going to try and write a little more of the song I've been working on. I feel inspired.

Glen Hansard is about to play on Late Night. So cool.

Late Night with Jimmy Fallon isn't that bad. I don't really like his monologues at the beginning though. They're not that funny. He's probably still trying to get used to things.

That Bryan Brinkman experiment is kind of cool. I wouldn't get a twitter account though. His animation is kind of cool too. I really liked the one called "The Coffee Bird".

The weather was perfect today. I loved it. I wish I could've enjoyed it more though.

I think it's stupid that Heroes won't be on for two weeks. I think it's also stupid that Scrubs hasn't been new in three weeks. What the hell is happening to the world?

Sleep here I come.

Sometimes I Wonder Why I'm So Full Of These Endless Rhymes About The Way I Feel Inside

I can't believe I'm writing this right now. I should be asleep or at least using this time to study. I just can't seem to focus though. I had 4 or 5 hours of sleep last night. The exam I had today was ridiculous. Now I'm up studying for the exam I have tomorrow. All I want to do is lay down and shut my eyes.

I found out that our Spring Break is a week later than I thought it was. I could've sworn it said the 23rd online. It sucks, but now there's a chance my parents will head to San Diego that week and leave me to watch their house. Honestly I've just wanted to head home lately. I don't know what it is. I just feel like I don't really have anything to relate to here. It's not like I don't like Sacramento or my school or my friends here, it's just I've been feeling so empty. I don't know what it is.

I'm listening to City and Colour right now. He'll never get old for me. I wonder if when I'm older and I have kids, and I try to show them the music that I listened to when I was young, if they'll think I'm lame. Weird to think about.

The whole lack of sleep thing is really inspiring me to pick up my guitar and write. It's probably because my mind is just kind of wandering.

These last few days I haven't been able to talk to Joy that much. I've been busy studying for all these exams my teachers decided to give me this week. I miss her.

I really want to get the book House of Leaves. It looks really interesting.

I was talking to my mom today about how my sister's birthday is on Friday. I asked her if I should buy her anything. My mom said no and I made a joke about how she didn't get me anything for my last birthday. She said, "Aww she didn't?" and I said, "Nope. Nobody did." I don't think she realized that. It's not that I wanted anything, but it was my 18th birthday. My sister had a huge party at a hall for her 18th birthday. It doesn't seem too fair.

Sometimes I look back and wonder how different things would be if I made certain decisions over others. Or I'll think about what would've happened if I didn't meet the people I met in my life. I tend to think about that stuff a lot. That's probably unhealthy.

Lately I've just been playing The Wonder Years, Transit, and Fireworks. The Wonder Year's lyrics are so good to me for some reason.

I can't wait for this movie to come out:


The book was so good. It's weird because when I was reading the book, I pictured it all very similar to the way the movie looks.

Still weird I grabbed that book randomly at Border's.

I think I'll sleep and wake up early to finish the last two questions I need to do. I can't function.

Floop.

Do You Remember The Summer Heat? And The Way, We Used To Be

So I have a midterm for my Math class tomorrow and I've been studying all day. I'm taking a break to type this out and because Heroes is going to be on in a few minutes.

Today was pretty uneventful. Except I was in a really good mood the whole time.

I downloaded a bunch of music today. I'm pretty excited about it.



I wish I was in a band like theirs.



I talked to my parents today and they took Moose to get a couple of shots. Poor little guy. I miss him.

I'm not going to lie but the new Star Trek movie looks pretty cool.

Next week I'll start writing more. No exams or anything to worry about. I can't wait.

Transit and Fireworks are so good.

I lost my DC card. I have no idea how. I have to get a new one tomorrow. I wish I would've realized it earlier. I would've done it today.

The lift on the Stem Cell Ban is awesome.

Looking at houses. I can't wait.

I Stay Busy Day And Night, I Don't Have Time To Complain, Everything, Everything, Everything Is Going To Be Okay

I love The Wonder Years. They're probably one of my favorite bands.



I downloaded Tiefighter's album. It's actually really good. I expected it to not be for some reason. I don't know why.

This weekend was weird. Friday we didn't do anything. Saturday we ended up staying out all night. It was alright. Today I was so tired though.

Yesterday my parents and Joy came up to visit me. It was nice. We went out to eat and Joy and I got to hang out together. I loved it.

It feels like we haven't hung out with Drew in a while. That kind of sucks.

I'm looking forward to Spring Break a lot.

I have a bunch of midterms that I need to study for this week. Awesome.

It's strange how I both like and dislike the beginning of the week.

Our friend Joe from downstairs hung out with us last night. It was really random but it was definitely cool having him around. Hopefully he'll hang out with us more.

Russel Brand's stand-up was really funny.

So is Role Models.

Losing one hour of sleep is crappy.

Give Me One Last Kiss, For Soon, Such Distance, Will Stretch Between Our Lips

I'm still awake.

It's almost 4 in the morning. Fuck.

But, I'm glad I don't have school tomorrow.

Pad and I watched No Country For Old Men earlier. It was really good.

I found out today I did really good on my Math test. And since I did so good, it changed my grade a bunch. Now I have around a B in that class. I'm so proud of myself. I need to push myself to work hard in my classes this semester. I have midterms next week. Hopefully I'll do good. I'm going to take them seriously.

I feel strange right now. Not too sure what it is.

My parents and Joy are probably coming Saturday. That should be great.

I really like the split Distances EP from The Wonder Years and All Or Nothing. They're both really good bands.

I noticed that it kind of looks like my Math teacher had some sort of surgery or something on his face in his past. Maybe that's why he has so much facial hair in weird parts. He's really smart and I think he even won a nobel prize or something. It's weird though because I can tell he's lonely. He's talked about living with his roommates and I couldn't help but wonder if he's ever been in a relationship and why he wasn't married. Sure he's a little weird, but there are tons of weird women in the world. It makes me feel bad for him.

Our room is pretty messy right now. Tomorrow is DEFINITELY garbage day. Eww.

Even though I'm going to sleep super late, I'm going to try and wake up early tomorrow. I don't want my day off to go to waste.

Apparently I'm going to try and grow a mustache this March. We'll see how that goes. Stupid boy face.

Apparently I didn't miss much in either of my classes on Tuesday. That's awesome.

I saw a flier for this group called The Athiest Student Organization. That was weird to me.

I re-did my page and replaced all of the videos in the Movies and Television sections with pictures. I guess my page would make a bunch of people's computers freeze. Woops.



That's definitely some love makin' music.

So thirsty.

You Know, I Always Imagined It Something More

I was freaking out earlier because I thought I had a midterm tomorrow. I forgot my teacher moved it to next week. That's good.

I'm still super sore. I guess that's good though.

I almost didn't go to class today. I'm glad I did though.

More talking about getting our own place next semester. It's going to be so great.

I can't wait for Alexisonfire's new album to come out.

I wonder what I missed in my classes on Tuesday.

I downloaded more music today. I love me my downloading.

The Asian Station in the DC wasn't that great. It could've been better.

I was reading some of my old posts today. It's so weird to remember certain days like that. I'm glad I have this thing. A year from now I can look back and laugh, because it always seems that things never matter a year later.

I can't wait for summer to be here. There's this feeling I miss. The weather is warm and it's night time, music is playing from a car or something and you can feel the way summer is supposed to feel. I wonder if anyone else understands what I mean.

I don't really have anything to say tonight.

And Suddenly I Become A Part Of Your Past, I'm Becoming The Part That Don't Last, I'm Losing You And It's Effortless

I just downloaded the Punk Goes Pop 2 album and it's pretty good so far.

I'm so sore right now. Pad, Drew, Gatehouse, and I worked out last night. I've never gone and lifted weights ever before that. I guess I wasn't in that bad of shape though. We're going to try and do it more often. I hope I start noticing a difference soon.

I hate the reputation I have. I've done some stupid stuff back in the day. I'm trying to be different.

So I decided I don't want to smoke anymore. Anything. I don't want to be an old man coughing up blood.

I wish I had an iPod with more memory. 8 gigs are not cutting it.

For the longest time, Pad and I didn't have anything to drink in our room. We finally got some soda last night. Yes.

Writing more for TSoW. Hopefully I'll record soon. Maybe Spring Break?

We're talking about finding a house more lately. I can't wait to have our own place.

My parents might come visit me on Saturday. If they do, they're going to bring Joy with them. So awesome.

Oh god I need to pee.

I Don't Want To Know What I'd Be Without Forgiveness Brushing These Adulturous Lips

I'm getting sick again and it really sucks. Right now my head's killing me and I feel like passing out. I hope I get over this soon.

This weekend was pretty cool. Friday Padraic and I hung with our friend Ashley and her friends. They were pretty cool. We went to this kids house and everyone was so drunk except for Padraic, this guy named Will, and I. We had no way back to our place so we stayed the night there. I slept in a closet and only got 2 hours of sleep. Saturday we hung out and went to a club. It was fun, even though I had to wait in the rain for Drew's roommate o bring me a belt because they wouldn't let me in without one. Ridiculous.

Joy came up on Saturday and it was great. We hung out in my dorm for a while and then walked around the campus so I could show her it. I wish she could've stayed longer.

Pad and I are watching Reservoir Dogs right now. It's a really good movie so far. Why is Quentin Tarantino so weird though?

We watched Inside Man earlier too. That was a really good movie.

I want to redo my profile. I want to replace all of the videos with pictures. That's probably going to take a little while though.

I'm so sick of DC food. It gets so old.

Reservoir Dogs just finished. Really good.

Sleep?