You Ain't Nothing Like The Girl I Used To Know

It's been a while.

I've been busy working. I haven't really had a lot of free time. Except when I hang out with Joy. But any other time I'm not spending at work, I'm doing some sort of chore or something of the sort.

I just got home not too long ago from Joy's. I was falling asleep while watching Disturbia. Now I can't sleep when I'm actually in my own bed. Lame.

I kind of wish I was going to Warped Tour tomorrow, but at the same time I'm fine with not going. I think I'm going in August or something. We'll see.

I just want to finish my stupid cover so I can put it up and record an original song.

I'm freaking out because I've been spending way too much money. I hate it. I just want to stop. I'm trying to eat at home more and I'm trying to hold off on buying some stuff that I can use.

I dropped my new phone today for the first time. I can already see it getting really messed up during the time I have it.

House of Leaves. Favorite book hands down. I'm not done yet. Almost.

"I have nothing left," Navidson says slowly into the microcassette recorder. "No more food. No more water. [Long pause] I have film but the flash is dead. I'm so cold. My feet hurt." Then (who knows how much later): "I'm no longer sitting on anything. The slab, whatever it was, is gone. I'm floating or falling or I don't know what." Now, except for when Navidson speaks, silence predominates.

"I have no sense of anything other than myself," he mumbles.

"I know I'm falling and will soon slam into the bottom. I feel it, rushing up at me." But he can only live with this fear for so long before he recognizes: "I won't even know when I finally do hit. I'll be dead before I can realize anything's happened. So there is no bottom. It does not exixt for me. Only my end exists." And then in a whisper: "Maybe that is the something here. The only thing here. My end."

Hypothetically If You Could Only Hear, Then Time Would Die In Love

I haven't really liked posting on here for some reason. I think I've just been busy.

Lately I've been working a lot, but also hanging out with everyone a lot. I love it. Last night was crazy. I'm glad Joy was there to take care of me.

I have the next two days off. So happy about that. It's crazy how fast I got used to working at JC Penney again. It's seriously like I never left.

My Grandparents are coming up to visit from San Diego tomorrow. That should be cool.

The Patient and I's new song is pretty good. I can't wait to hear it finished.

It's time to sleep.

How I Wish You Could See The Potential, The Potential Of You And Me

I haven't posted in a week. I've been pretty busy.

I finally got a new phone last week. It's the LG Xenon. Padraic had the same phone and since I knew it was cool I figured I should just buy it. I definitely love it.

I started working this week. It's weird how I feel back in the loop of working there again. The new store manager seems really nice.

I've been slacking on working out this week. For a few days I was doing pretty good. Oh well. I'll probably get up early tomorrow and do some sort of exercise.

I'm ready to finally record a cover song. I've talked about recording one for so long, but I'm actually going to do it this time. I've already started. I'm off tomorrow so I want to start the guitar tracks. It's going to be pretty simple so it shouldn't take long at all.

I've been liking how things are lately. I'm working again, spending time with Joy, hanging out with friends, eating home cooked meals. Life's good.

The other night Joy and I were laying in my car and just talking about things and I am pretty sure I want to write down a few experiences I've dealt with. I don't know. It's just an idea right now.

For some reason I've heard this song a million times but never really liked it until a few days ago.

I'm up right now and can hear the thunder outside. Moose is freaking out. He's growling and barking at it. He actually just crawled behind me to hide I think. He looks confused that I'm so calm about the crazy noise.

Lately I've been working out and I really like it. It makes me feel good that I'm actually doing stuff to try and get in shape.

I start training next Wednesday. I'm so glad I got my job back.

I just saw Stanich's video of him winning a truck on the Price Is Right. That's so crazy. I've never seen anyone I know on TV. I want to meet Drew Carey.

It turns out my sister won't be going to see Coldplay with Joy and I because she'll be super pregnant by then. We might have to find two other people to see Coldplay with.

I'm hearing noise on my roof that is kind of freaking me out so I'm going to go.

It's Been All Of My Regrets To Live A Lie

I've been so happy these last few days. It's really great to be back home.

Friday I talked to my old manager at J.C. Penney and I pretty much have my job back. I'm so relieved. I really need some sort of income coming in. I'm going to try and save a bunch. I need to buy a car this summer.

I finally met Joy's parents this weekend. Her mom and brother are so nice. I like that I can go over to her place now. The only thing that sucks is I guess her dad asked her brother if I was a pot head or something. Hopefully he'll get a better impression of me the more he sees me.

Watching Joy graduate was amazing. I'm so proud of her. I kept thinking back to a year ago when I was in her position. It's crazy to think about. Things were so different. I was so different. It seems like it was such a long time ago.

I think I'm going to try and record something this week. I don't know if it'll be an original song or not, but I'm hoping if I start the whole recording process it'll inspire me to record more songs.

My parents lied to me a million times about what they were doing this week. First, they said they were on vacation from work. I was kind of mad because I like having the house to myself. Then, they said they were going to San Diego to visit my grandparents, which would be awesome because Joy could spend the night a million times. I guess they aren't on vacation, which probably means they're not going to San Diego. Jerks.

Joy and I watched the MTV Movie Awards tonight. Andy Samberg is so funny. Miley Cirus is super lame for her "I'm on a boat" comment. Twilight got way to many awards. No matter how hot Megan Fox is, she always looks like a bitch. The funniest moment had to be when Bruno landed on Eminem. Eminem got so mad. You would think after all of the jokes he makes about people, he'd be able to handle a little prank someone played on him.

Subway dissapointed me today by telling me they don't make Prime Rib sandwiches anymore.

Conan comes back on tomorrow. I'm so happy about that. It's about time he's back on television.

It's strange to think about how this will probably be my last Summer in Tracy. I'll be moving to Sacramento for good this semester. I'll visit now and then, but I'll actually be living in Sac. I'm happy and sad about it at the same time. The 6 or so years that I "lived" here has definitely had an impact on me and who I am now.

There are so many movies I want to see this summer. Hopefully a few midnight showings.

Tomorrow Joy and I are going to have a badly needed workout session. I want to lose some weight this summer for sure.

Northstar is so amazing. I've been listening to them a lot lately. Cassino too. Good stuff.