Everyday's Another Chance To Make It, But I Can't

Thursday's coming up quick. I'm excited. I'm a little nervous but I'm almost positive it'll be alright. Practicing with Anthony has sounded REALLY good. I like it a lot. Art made a flier for the little show. And I guess on Thursday Echo and Kady are going to take pictures of me playing. It's amazing how much my friends are helping me with this. They have no idea how grateful I am for them. I know it's not like a huge or that serious of a show or anything, but it's my first time playing my music in front of people. So it kind of means a lot to me. Joy has been my test audience and she said I sound good. But that could also be because we're dating. Maybe?

Scrubs has been really good so far. I'm so happy Elliot and J.D. are back together. E+J forever! Haha.

I told my parents about how I failed two classes. They didn't really get mad or anything but I could tell my mom was pretty upset. My dad didn't say anything because that's just how he is. I really should have studied more or paid more attention. I don't want to make excuses but I think it might have a lot to do with how lonely I was over there. Not to mention the not sleeping thing. But now I feel like Padraic and Drew and I have gotten to be pretty good friends. So I don't think I'll feel that loneliness over there. I'm going to try and have a steady sleeping schedule.

So apparently some people who don't really like me decided to not be friends with Art because he hangs out with me. It's ridiculous. I understand if you have a problem with me or something, but don't take it out on someone like Art who's just a caring, good person. Honestly I don't understand why we can't act like one another doesn't exist. I feel bad.

My wrist hurts a lot for some reason. I have no idea why.

This song that's on my profile is really good. I've been playing it over and over. It was on that Zach Braff interview thing. The guy's name is William Fitzsimmons. I might download his album.

In a couple of weeks I head back to Sacramento. I'm excited but scared also. I'm going to miss Joy a lot. I've seen her everyday since I've been here (with the exception of today). I hate how distance has always been a factor in every one of my relationships.

I watched The Butterfly Effect this morning. Always a good movie. A little later I watched this movie called Get Over It on MTV. It was pretty good. For some reason I'm a sucker for those 90's teen movies like Can't Hardly Wait or Drive Me Crazy.

I'm kind of worried about leaving my dog next week. I guess he gets sad when I leave and like goes to my room looking for me and what not. That damn dog. He's probably my best friend.

I've been using my debit card a lot. I'm afraid to look at my bank account balance. I hope that loan comes quick.

I'm really excited about Notorious coming out. It looks like it's going to be a really good movie. I'm going to drag Joy to see it with me. Even though she says she's going to fall asleep. I might watch Bride Wars with her to be fair. We'll see.

I just sneezed and woke up my dog. He gave me the most scared look ever.

Sleep. Now.