I wanted to blog last night but I fell asleep. Dangit.
Well last night Pad and I just sat around our room playing video games and listening to music. It was actually kind of fun. I actually beat Jumpman. It was intense. Now I don't know what I'll do with my free time.
I just learned how to play this:
I like how I can actually listen to that song fine now. I'm thinking of covering it, but I'm afraid I'll butcher it.
I thought my phone was screwing up today because it wouldn't send any of my text messages. I guess it wasn't? I dont know.
I actually agree with that little group for the new I Shot The Sheriff vocalist, even though I'm not on good terms with the guy.
I wish I would've been able to see City and Colour in San Francisco. It sucks so much that I didn't.
Pad and I have no idea what we're going to do tonight. Drew's going to some mixer for TKE. This semester looks like it might be lame.
I love this song:
I want a beard.
The night before last I didn't get much sleep. Apparently I get more stuff done with less sleep. Weird. I hate how I only have trouble sleeping here.
My mom is so ridiculous. She kept telling me to wear a "rain jacket" on Saturday. Eww. I wish she wouldn't say stuff like that.
Jumpman has taken up most of my day.
Pad and me were waiting for Important Things with Demetri Martin to come on, but by the time we realized it had started, it was ten minutes into it. So we'll probably watch it online.
I think I'm starting to get to the point where I need new music. I hate that.
Apparently Scrubs hasn't been new in two weeks. Hella gay.
I haven't done any dishes yet.
This made me laugh so much:
Weeks have been going by so fast lately. I love it. Tomorrow's my last day of school.
Friday I want to clean up like crazy. It's insane how fast our room gets messy.
Last night I fell asleep pretty easy. I liked it a lot. I woke up this morning and thought I had class at 12, but remembered it was Wednesday and fell back to sleep.
I'm listening to UnderOath's older album. They're Only Chasing Safety. Oh nostalgia.
This one too.
Oh mic swings.
Tonight is pretty boring. Oh well. I kind of like it.
I just finished watching Heroes. This season is so good.
I missed Scrubs tonight, but I'll just watch it online sometime this week.
Today was definitely a strange day. I woke up so tired from not being able to sleep last night. I did good on my Spanish quiz. I did bad on my Math one though. I forgot to bring Pad's calculator which completely screwed me up. I should have went to last Thursday's class too. I know better now.
My parents are really considering getting rid of Moose. It's stressing me out because I just want them to wait until I get my own place for next semester. Hopefully things will be alright.
I got pretty far in that game Jumpman I downloaded. It's crazy how hard some levels are.
Saturday is looking like it's going to be great. I can't wait.
I'm in a really good mood right now. I don't know why.
I want to sing and play my guitar right now but it's too late.
This might sound lame, but I think I'll always remember this:
Hopefully I get over my little cough thing before Saturday.
I'm up doing homework I should have done earlier today. Awesome.
I didn't go to my history class today. I woke up this morning and my throat felt horrible. I was telling Pad yesterday I hope I don't get sick, and I think that's exactly what's happening. Not cool.
I ate so many times today. That's probably good if I'm getting sick.
Earlier I did a little reading and then sat around for super long. Drew, Pad, our friend Gatehouse, and me were just sitting in our room watching movies. It's probably good I got so much rest.
I have no idea why I used to like rain. It sucks. Mud everywhere, coldness, getting wet. Hella lame.
I downloaded this game that's impossible. It's called Jumpman. It's a platform type of game. Even though I can't pass the first level, it's still kind of fun.
This is pretty cool.
I just finished my math homework and I'm almost positive I'm going to do well on my quiz tomorrow.
I made a super random playlist to listen to while I study consisting of City and Colour, Blink 182, Bye Bye Birmington, +44, Angels and Airwaves, Boxcar Racer, New Found Glory, Nevershoutnever!, Motion City Soundtrack, The Patient and I, and Nelly. Only not really Nelly.
I'm annoyed because apparently the song titles of one of my Angel and Airwaves albums are wrong. So I'm downloading another copy because I don't want to go and rename each one.
It was really random how many different people came by today. These two girls that Pad and me used to hang out with in the beginning of last semester came by. It was kind of awkward. Honestly, I didn't even know they still lived here.
Saturday is going to be so cool! I might be going to the zoo with Joy and Karen and Karens guy friend. I can't wait.
I just learned that Conan won't be doing the Tonight Show until the summer. Which means there will be months without Conan on TV. As lame as it sounds, that kind of makes me sad.
The new TSoW song is coming along. I like it a lot, just like every new song I write.
I won't have to do laundry until Friday. I'm pretty happy about that.
I missed Heroes tonight, but I'll watch it online tomorrow.
I wish someone would pay me to lurk peoples profiles and what not. I'm way too good at that. So funny.
I'm up right now because I can't sleep. It sucks pretty bad because Joy is falling asleep.
Friday was pretty nice because I stayed in and talked to Joy on the phone for a long time.
Saturday was pretty cool. There was an open party at the TKE house and we went. Everyone was still really cool and telling me and Pad to come out to open events and what not. I can't wait until next semester.
I like the people I know here. Sure there are times where I'll get annoyed by someone, but that happens with everyone. When Joy moves here, everything will be perfect. Why can't next year be here already.
I'm listening to Motion City Soundtrack. It reminds me of the summer before sophomore year for some reason. I think I was a completely different person then. So innocent and naive. Crazy.
I started writing a new TSoW song. I'm so relieved I wrote more today. I thought I would be playing the same two chords forever.
I'm so sick of not having a steady sleep pattern. I remember in high school I had normal sleep. I want it back.
I was talking to Joy tonight about how funny it is we ended up together. Out of all these years and while being involved with a bunch of different people.
I hate how every song I write I try in some way to make it filled with emotion and feelings, and almost never succeed. I just want to write something meaningful.
I think this song is so good.
I've been having really weird dreams lately. Last night I dreamt I was a cop. While being a cop there was this weird heartfelt lesson like I was on TV or a movie. Weird.
I think I'm going to start applying for jobs this week. I feel so adult-ish. I'm going to college, on my own, trying to find a job, getting ready to find a new place. I feel a bit accomplished. I hope my family is proud. I'm really trying.
All I want to do right now is play my guitar and sing. Loud. I never really told anybody this but sometimes I get these urges to just yell or something. I'm normally such a quiet guy that sometimes I get tired of it. Kind of weird.
This song that Joy showed me is really hitting a good spot with me. I can't stop listening to it.
fmylife.com is so funny. One of my new favorite sites.
Still no idea what me and Pad are doing tonight. Hopefully something pops up.
Gatorade is actually not that bad. I used to hate it so much. Weird.
I've been mentioning this a lot lately, but I can NOT wait until we get our own place. It's not like the dorms are bad or anything, but I think it'll feel more like I'm on my own if we were in an actual apartment or house.
So Joy is going to visit me next Sunday. That's really exciting. I can't wait.
It's such a nice day out. I love this weather. I'm ready for you Spring.
Senses Fail is playing right now. Hell yes.
It sucks that Scrubs wasn't new this week. At least Demetri Martin's new show is really funny. I ate, yo.
I'm laying in bed waiting for Dogma to finish buffering. It actually just finished and I'm excited.
I just downloaded Senses Fail's album Let It Enfold You. I haven't listened to that album in so long. Oh nostalgia.
Drew is still pledging this semester. I understand his decision and everything, but I'm a little worried we're going to not hang out as much. Let's hope I'm wrong.
This weekend is pretty much up in the air. I have no idea what we're going to be doing. Hopefully it'll still be fun.
Art and Kady might be visiting on Sunday. I hope they do. That'd be awesome if we hung out up here.
I'm really glad I don't have class tomorrow. I feel like I've been really busy lately. I plan on being lazy tomorrow.
Haven't listened to that song in so long. So good.
Joy doesn't know if she's going to be able to stay up here for that long. That really sucks.
I've been listening to that song a lot lately. Oh that Dallas Green.
Moose has been acting really bad lately. My parents are getting tired of him. I really hope they don't give him away.
I just watched Gran Torino with Pad and Drew. Definitely a really good movie. I'm really glad I saw it.
Today was a really uneventful day. I woke up, got ready, went to class, ate, then sat around. Super crazy.
The new Patient and I sample sounds really good. I can't wait to hear more. I wish his album would come out already.
I need to shave. It's not like I can grow a massive amount of facial hair because my body still thinks it's a little boy, but the hairs I do have are annoying and ugly.
I started writing a new song today. I've only got this little part down, but at least it's something. I need to get past this writer's block.
I've been a really bad City and Colour fan and didn't realize his Canadian Bravo special was online already.
So Padraic can't pledge this semester either. That sucks for him, but at least we'll be able to pledge together next semester.
My week is almost over and I didn't even realize it. I like it.
Gran Torino reminded me of how much I don't want to get old. It's scary to think that one day I'll be too old to do some stuff. It's scary to think I might outlive my spouse too. And then the whole dogs not living forever thing. Awesome.
It's good that they got those two kids who abused that cat. People like that should seriously get their balls cut off.
Chris Brown too.
I can't wait until the summer. Hopefully we'll have our own place by then.
I guess my spring break isn't during the week my dad has vacation from work. This means no watching their house for a week. Lame.
Pad and I can't think of the movie we wanted to watch earlier. It's really bugging me.
I'm listening to City and Colour for the first time in I don't know how long. I love that no matter when I listen to his stuff, it always amazes me.
So I can't pledge this semester. My English teacher won't change my grade to a WU. It sucks pretty bad, but at least I have next semester. This will give me time to find a job and stuff too. So in a way it works out.
I honestly can't wait to find a place for next semester. Padraic, Drew, Joy and I have talked about maybe looking for a house to rent. That would be perfect. Drew is still not sure if he wants to get a place off campus or not. I think he should. It'd pretty much be cheaper. I'll be able to bring Moose up too. It would be so great. Hopefully that works out.
I'm going to start writing some more TSoW songs also, since I'll have more free time than I thought. Listening to City and Colour and Blink 182 songs have been inspiring me to write.
I can really say I like the way my life is going right now. I have some good friends both here and Tracy, I have an amazing girlfriend, I'm actually doing pretty good in school, I am getting along with my family, and I'm constantly having fun. I hope things stay this good for a while.
I've been thinking about the people I may or may not have wronged in the past. Some situations I can see where I might have made bad decisions, some I can't. Either way, I wish everyone got along. It's weird how things escalate.
I remember the other day, while driving home from Tracy, I was thinking about how I always feel this weird way where I'm really anxious for something. Like I'm always working towards something, but I don't know what it is. I remember when I was younger thinking "I can't wait until I'm older". Then in high school I couldn't wait to graduate and go to college. Now I can't wait to graduate from college and get a job and start my life. I wonder what else I'll look forward to.
Joy might be visiting in a week or so. I hope she can stay the night or stay for a few days. It'd be nice to have her here.
I can't wait until my sister has her baby. I'm going to spoil that kid like crazy. I've always loved hanging around really little kids. I don't really like them after they reach the age of 6-7. I can't believe my other sister is getting married this year too. My family just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I'm growing up too. It's going to be so weird when I'm older and we all have our little families. We'll call each other and see each other on special events and what not. Very weird.
I wish I could play guitar and sing everyday.
I'm not really tired right now. Everyone's asleep though. No one to talk to. I want to go outside but it's probably freezing. I can't wait until it's warmer. Definitely.
This weekend was really nice. I hung out with Artony and them. I saw Joy and had a great Valentine's Day with her.
I was planning on recording this weekend for this new project I was going to start up, but I decided not to. The lyrics I had were mostly a bunch of things I wrote when I was angry and what not. But honestly, I don't even feel the things I wrote anymore. I can really say that I don't care about certain things or people at all. It's nice.
I have a TKE meeting tonight. I guess just to let us know about things and how this semester's going to go.
Padraic, Drew, and I are watching Chappelle's Show. I probably should be doing homework. I'll do it tonight when I get home.
I might be visiting Tracy for Spring Break. My parents are thinking about going to visit my grandparents in San Diego that week, and I'd be watching the house and Moose for the week.
I was thinking about how different my life would be if I didn't move to Tracy. I was thinking about what it'd be like if I didn't go to Sac. It's weird how you can be really close to some people and then not be. I wonder what people I'll meet in the future who will go in and out of my life. Strange thinking.
Last Thursday was TKE's 10:01. It was insane. I don't want to talk about the rituals, but they were pretty crazy. By the time we left the TKE house I was trashed. We go to the club and it was fun. A bunch of crap went down and the police was called so we had to get out of there pretty quick. One of the active members told me to follow him and he drove me back to the house. I thought I lost my phone and keys, but I guess they were in the car. Padraic found them for me. It was definitely a very intense night.
I pulled out my guitar tonight for the first time since I've been back in Sacramento. Just played little things here and there, but I think I want to start writing again soon.
I've felt pretty weird today. I don't know what it is. I just feel heavy or something. I don't know.
New Found Glory's new album is really good. One of their best, I think.
I've been doing pretty good in my Math class. I did all of my homework and aced the quiz today. I'm pretty excited about that.
I'm taking a break from doing my Math homework. I'm almost done, and I'm positive I'm ready for my quiz tomorrow. YES.
So during the next week I have to talk to two of my teachers from last semester about changing my grades into WUs so I can drop them and raise my GPA and get my official bid from TKE. Why is everything so difficult for me? I'm glad they gave us a little extra time to do it. This week is going to be insane.
I head home this Friday. I can't wait. I've been missing Joy a lot and I think we really need to be together right now. I hate distance.
I've been listening to Blink 182, +44, and Angels and Airwaves all night. I'm really excited about Blink getting back together. I am pretty sure that no matter what I'm doing, I can listen to them and be happy about it.
Conan has ten more episodes of Late Night. It's going to be crazy seeing him on a different set and earlier. Jimmy Fallon better not fuck things up.
I have a title for the song I'm working on for my new project. Now I have no idea what to call my new project. It kind of sucks. Oh well.
Listening to old Blink reminds me of when I was younger. I remember thinking things were so difficult then. I was so naive. I had it so easy. I'm sure I'll think the same of me at this age when I'm older also.
"My dearest I've missed you very very much since that last night we were together And will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately I've read you're letter through at least 4 times And will probably read it more times before I'm through I've been sitting here Looking at you're picture and getting more home sick every minute I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of Except of course you, you're self I keep thinking of you darling I keep wishing I could be home with you I want to leave in the worst possible way so I could come home to see you But: Things don't look to good on that subject This war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now I'm completely lost without you darling I never realized I could miss anyone person so much I just hope it won't be too much longer till I'm able to be with you again And live a sane and normal life."
So last night I got a verbal bid to join TKE. I didn't get an actual one yet because I have to withdraw the units from these two classes I took last semester so my GPA can be higher. I need to take care of that on Monday. I'm really excited about it though. I talked to my parents and sister and they pretty much support me in joining. That's really good to hear. I'm really excited about it.
Anthony was talking to me about maybe doing another acoustic show. It'd be with Brooke's cousin or something. That'd be really sick. It'd be in Lathrop or something.
I'm trying to stay on top of things lately. Getting school work done and still hanging out and stuff. I like it.
It's really cool that Padraic, Drew, and I are all rushing TKE together. It should be really fun. It's really weird because I never saw myself joining a fraternity. Oh well. Things change.
Somehow we're going to Davis tonight. It should be fun.
So as weird as it sounds, I'm thinking about joining a fraternity. I've never really thought they were that cool, but I completely change my mind. At first I was only going to rush TKE with Padraic and Drew for fun and like as something to do. I didn't want to pledge or anything. We went to play dodgeball on Tuesday and it was A LOT of fun. I met a bunch of people. Then tonight they had Broomball at an ice rink and it was sick. We were running around hitting the ball with sticks. It was awesome. Afterwards Padraic and I went and hung out at their frat house and talked to the guys and they seemed really cool. They were telling us about all the things we'll do while pledging and how close you get to your pledge brothers and they really convinced me to do it all the way. I'm going to talk to my parents about it and I'm sure they'll be cool about it. It's a lot cheaper than I thought it'd be too.
So I was stressing about my Math class. I took the IAD (this test that would tell me if I could stay in the class), and I got one point below the provisional score. So I talked to my teacher about it and he said he wanted to see how I did on Tuesday's quiz. I ended up passing it 100% and getting full credit on the homework. So after talking to him today he said if I pass this next quiz I can stay in the class, but if I don't I have to drop it. I'm really confident I'm going to pass though because we went over a problem exactly like the one on the quiz and I completely understood how to do it. I'm so happy because I'm starting to like that class more and I really want to do good this semester.
I have no class tomorrow so I think I'm going to do my homework and all of that. I'm going to be super sore. Falling on ice doesn't feel too good. And tomorrow night TKE's going bowling so that should be fun. On Saturday we're going to somehow get to Davis. No idea how yet. And Monday Joy might come up and visit me for the day! That'd be amazing!
Sadly I missed Heroes and Scrubs this week, but I'm going to catch up tomorrow and watch them online!
I can't wait until I'm back in Tracy and I get to see Joy. Honestly she makes me really happy. It's crazy.
I have a break right now until my Math class at 4. I'm just killing some time.
Last night sucked pretty bad. We went to Empire and everyone had a shitty time. What sucked was Padriac and Drew got in an argument. They ended up talking it out though later on so that's good. I guess everyone fights, so it's not that big of a deal.
I found a ride to Tracy next weekend. I made friends with this girl named Elise who lives in my hall. She's really nice. She can be a little much sometimes, but she's still cool.
I've been writing lyrics for that song I've been working on for my new project. I'm planning on recording the vocals when I go home. Hopefully it comes out good.
I thought I had more to say but I guess not. I'll probably write another blog tonight.
Lame night. We went to a club and I didn't really have a good time at all.
I was thinking about how unimportant I am and always have been. Like honestly I'm very discardable (not even a word...just checked and apparently IS a word). I've never been a main person in any of my group of friends. I don't know if that makes sense. I hate how sensitive I am. Like honestly it wasn't even a big deal but I felt so crappy. I hate how I get like that. At one point I was sitting alone and was just kind of shaking. I don't know if I was getting all nervous because I was alone and was worried I looked stupid or if I was just cold or both but it sucked. I hate how anxious I get sometimes.
I was sitting and thinking about how different I am than I used to be. There are some things that I never would have been into before. I don't know. Something needs to change though.
Maybe I'm just overreacting because of a bad night. I hate how I get sometimes.
I wonder if anyone realizes the titles to my blogs are lyrics.
