I Can't See My Own Faults, For What They Are

I'm listening to City and Colour for the first time in I don't know how long. I love that no matter when I listen to his stuff, it always amazes me.

So I can't pledge this semester. My English teacher won't change my grade to a WU. It sucks pretty bad, but at least I have next semester. This will give me time to find a job and stuff too. So in a way it works out.

I honestly can't wait to find a place for next semester. Padraic, Drew, Joy and I have talked about maybe looking for a house to rent. That would be perfect. Drew is still not sure if he wants to get a place off campus or not. I think he should. It'd pretty much be cheaper. I'll be able to bring Moose up too. It would be so great. Hopefully that works out.

I'm going to start writing some more TSoW songs also, since I'll have more free time than I thought. Listening to City and Colour and Blink 182 songs have been inspiring me to write.

I can really say I like the way my life is going right now. I have some good friends both here and Tracy, I have an amazing girlfriend, I'm actually doing pretty good in school, I am getting along with my family, and I'm constantly having fun. I hope things stay this good for a while.

I've been thinking about the people I may or may not have wronged in the past. Some situations I can see where I might have made bad decisions, some I can't. Either way, I wish everyone got along. It's weird how things escalate.

I remember the other day, while driving home from Tracy, I was thinking about how I always feel this weird way where I'm really anxious for something. Like I'm always working towards something, but I don't know what it is. I remember when I was younger thinking "I can't wait until I'm older". Then in high school I couldn't wait to graduate and go to college. Now I can't wait to graduate from college and get a job and start my life. I wonder what else I'll look forward to.

Joy might be visiting in a week or so. I hope she can stay the night or stay for a few days. It'd be nice to have her here.

I can't wait until my sister has her baby. I'm going to spoil that kid like crazy. I've always loved hanging around really little kids. I don't really like them after they reach the age of 6-7. I can't believe my other sister is getting married this year too. My family just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I'm growing up too. It's going to be so weird when I'm older and we all have our little families. We'll call each other and see each other on special events and what not. Very weird.



I wish I could play guitar and sing everyday.

I'm not really tired right now. Everyone's asleep though. No one to talk to. I want to go outside but it's probably freezing. I can't wait until it's warmer. Definitely.